back when we were young, we wanted to grow up so bad
now that we are growing towards adulthood we look back at the years with a longing

i see all my juniors, my younger neighbours, all the small kids i used to know.
everyone is growing up so fast. i have been so amazed at this untill i realised that it only seems that way because im getting older as well. in less then a months time i will be an adult. haha cant imagine that. i get to make my own choices and sign my own papers. awesome or what.

but the change in me has been appalling.

i used to be fcuking loud
i used to cant stand still
i used to always get into trouble
i used to always irritate people
i used to always make fun of others
i used to do alot of things

but something just changed. and i cant seem to find the deciding factor. but somehow and somewhere i just changed i guess.

i like the quiet and peace
i can just sit there doing nothing at all. just smoking and listening to music.
i prefer to listen rather then talk.
i can go out alone and still enjoy myself.
i guess i can bite my cheek to say i have matured and become a teeny bit wiser.

theres more to think about but before all that lets just go along with the wind